My unemployment runs out by the end of the summer and the baby is due any day now. I had a job interview at the juvenile correctional facility this past week. I should know by the end of the week if I get it. I have to go through 140 hours of training and then I'm basically put on a reserve on call list so they will call me to come in when they need someone. After I've done that a while and gotten on the job training I can apply for a part time position there and then if a full time position opens up I can apply for that. It'll take a while to work my way up to full time but if I can it's a really good job at $15 an hour and possible overtime with really good benefits as well as 12 paid days vacation time and 12 paid sick days. If I could get this position and work up to full time Josh could quit his job at Wal-Mart to stay home to take care of the baby. Same for if Josh could get hired on there full time but that is less likely since they are more in need of females.
I haven't been able to go on my daily walks for about a week because the weather has been bad here. First we had a really bad wind storm and now it's freezing and raining and even snowing outside a little. Plus, I'm not sure if it's the extra weight or what, but I hurt my left leg/hip and every time I stand on it it's excruciatingly painful. So I've mostly just been stretching my legs a lot and taking a lot of hot baths in the hopes my leg will get better soon but so far it's not. Maybe the baby is lying on a nerve or something. But hopefully I will have the baby very soon and the weather will get nice again and I can take him for walks around the block in his stroller.
Josh has been so good and patient with me lately. I whine a lot about not feeling well and being in pain and the other day he even caught me crying when I had a particularly painful contraction in the car and he just rubbed my back and said nice things and bought me ice cream and took me home. I'm so glad I have him right now. There's no way I could do this without him. I hope he can just hang in there a little while longer with me. Soon he will have his baby boy and hopefully I will start feeling better and stop whining so much.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Photo Blog
A bird sitting in our cherry tree. Still waiting on those delicious cherries to get here so I can gorge.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Goals and Dreams
My sister recently posted a blog on her goals/bucket list for the year. While I loved hers my life goals right now are very different. But I like her idea of posting them here for all to see. Right now my life is nowhere near any kind of order or how I want it to be. I have both goals I want just to change my current situation as well as dreams for one day far in the future that I am not as focused on just yet. So here are some of mine.
1. Get a job. My dream is one day to again work as a journalist because I love doing that. I also dream of one day writing fiction again like I used to and becoming a best selling author. I have another dream of teaching young children. Obviously I can't do all of these things so I would need to decide and work toward one as a goal. But for right now, being unemployed, I just want any job even if it means working as a waitress or at a local grocery store for a while until I can get a better job. Of course I am so close to giving birth to our baby boy I can't do much to even look for a small job right now. I plan on waiting until about 2 weeks after he is born and once I have gotten used to being a mom and hopefully healed a little bit from child birth I will begin seriously applying for jobs...even a part time job here would be better than nothing at all.
2. I want to get back in shape again. Obviously, right now, I am huge because of my pregnancy. I weigh 145lbs and am just waiting for our son to be born to hopefully lose at least a majority of that. Right now I can't do much in the way of working out other than walk but I do walk a mile and a half every day. After the baby is born I will probably continue to walk for about 5 or 6 weeks and just take him around the block with me in his stroller to spend some mommy and baby time together. But in the next 2 or 3 months, once my body has fully healed, I would like to start going to the gym again or set up a running routine to start getting back in shape again. The only problem is the gym here in Ashton is only open early in the morning and I am not a morning person so I may have to figure something else out or just suck it up and wake up early anyway.
3. I want to be a better wife and mother. This is an ongoing one. Always wanting to be better. Right now I spend most of my time when Josh is home complaining. I never feel good and everything is all about me all the time. Since I'm pregnant and about to go through the worst pain of my life, which is half his fault, I feel entitled to this at the moment. But once the little man gets here and I'm done being all achy and feeling horrible I really need to begin to focus back on Josh again and what I can do for him and how I can be a better wife to him and support him more. For one, as long as I'm not working, I can cook him meals so he can eat well and not have to do that. I can make him drinks and spend more time in the evenings with him watching movies or playing games.
4. I want to become better at the things I used to enjoy. These include writing and playing the guitar and photography and scrapbooking and more recently baking. I don't write at all anymore. I'm not sure if it's just because I don't have the passion for it I used to or because I don't believe in myself anymore and my ability to write well. But, even if it's the worst writing ever, if I force myself to write again I'm sure I'll get back into it again. If I make myself practice the guitar daily or as often as I can I will be able to play again. If I practice taking photos of everything I will get better at it. I just need to practice and stop doubting myself so much.
5. I need to get closer to God again. I have not gone to church in months and do not pray or read my Bible very often at all. So once baby comes and I've established a semblance of routine in my life I need to start going to church again and I want to pray every day and read the Bible to little James. Even if he can't understand it yet it'll be good for me to read to him anyway and that's a good book to read.
6. I want money. We are always broke. We can barely afford to pay for the things we need. We get paid on Wednesdays and by Thursday, after we've paid all our bills and gone grocery shopping, we usually are back to being completely broke until the following week. I hate living like this. Between the two of us we have about $20,000 total in debts. So...my dream...is one day to completely debt free. Now I realize this is not a short term goal by any means and is going to take a long time to accomplish. Right now we just need to focus on getting jobs and moving out of this house. But, in addition to being debt free, I want to have enough income that we can afford to put away 10 percent in savings each pay check and give 10 percent to either the church or an organization like St. Jude's. I want to have at least 6 months income sitting in a savings account just in case.
7. Even though I want a job I don't want to be married to my job. I don't want it to be the most important thing in my life. Even if I return to journalism again I still want my family to be the number one most important thing in my life. I want to have weekend and vacation and evening time to spend with my son and Josh. I want time to volunteer in the community and at church. My job, no matter what it is, should always be second place to my life outside of work.
1. Get a job. My dream is one day to again work as a journalist because I love doing that. I also dream of one day writing fiction again like I used to and becoming a best selling author. I have another dream of teaching young children. Obviously I can't do all of these things so I would need to decide and work toward one as a goal. But for right now, being unemployed, I just want any job even if it means working as a waitress or at a local grocery store for a while until I can get a better job. Of course I am so close to giving birth to our baby boy I can't do much to even look for a small job right now. I plan on waiting until about 2 weeks after he is born and once I have gotten used to being a mom and hopefully healed a little bit from child birth I will begin seriously applying for jobs...even a part time job here would be better than nothing at all.
2. I want to get back in shape again. Obviously, right now, I am huge because of my pregnancy. I weigh 145lbs and am just waiting for our son to be born to hopefully lose at least a majority of that. Right now I can't do much in the way of working out other than walk but I do walk a mile and a half every day. After the baby is born I will probably continue to walk for about 5 or 6 weeks and just take him around the block with me in his stroller to spend some mommy and baby time together. But in the next 2 or 3 months, once my body has fully healed, I would like to start going to the gym again or set up a running routine to start getting back in shape again. The only problem is the gym here in Ashton is only open early in the morning and I am not a morning person so I may have to figure something else out or just suck it up and wake up early anyway.
3. I want to be a better wife and mother. This is an ongoing one. Always wanting to be better. Right now I spend most of my time when Josh is home complaining. I never feel good and everything is all about me all the time. Since I'm pregnant and about to go through the worst pain of my life, which is half his fault, I feel entitled to this at the moment. But once the little man gets here and I'm done being all achy and feeling horrible I really need to begin to focus back on Josh again and what I can do for him and how I can be a better wife to him and support him more. For one, as long as I'm not working, I can cook him meals so he can eat well and not have to do that. I can make him drinks and spend more time in the evenings with him watching movies or playing games.
4. I want to become better at the things I used to enjoy. These include writing and playing the guitar and photography and scrapbooking and more recently baking. I don't write at all anymore. I'm not sure if it's just because I don't have the passion for it I used to or because I don't believe in myself anymore and my ability to write well. But, even if it's the worst writing ever, if I force myself to write again I'm sure I'll get back into it again. If I make myself practice the guitar daily or as often as I can I will be able to play again. If I practice taking photos of everything I will get better at it. I just need to practice and stop doubting myself so much.
5. I need to get closer to God again. I have not gone to church in months and do not pray or read my Bible very often at all. So once baby comes and I've established a semblance of routine in my life I need to start going to church again and I want to pray every day and read the Bible to little James. Even if he can't understand it yet it'll be good for me to read to him anyway and that's a good book to read.
6. I want money. We are always broke. We can barely afford to pay for the things we need. We get paid on Wednesdays and by Thursday, after we've paid all our bills and gone grocery shopping, we usually are back to being completely broke until the following week. I hate living like this. Between the two of us we have about $20,000 total in debts. So...my dream...is one day to completely debt free. Now I realize this is not a short term goal by any means and is going to take a long time to accomplish. Right now we just need to focus on getting jobs and moving out of this house. But, in addition to being debt free, I want to have enough income that we can afford to put away 10 percent in savings each pay check and give 10 percent to either the church or an organization like St. Jude's. I want to have at least 6 months income sitting in a savings account just in case.
7. Even though I want a job I don't want to be married to my job. I don't want it to be the most important thing in my life. Even if I return to journalism again I still want my family to be the number one most important thing in my life. I want to have weekend and vacation and evening time to spend with my son and Josh. I want time to volunteer in the community and at church. My job, no matter what it is, should always be second place to my life outside of work.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Mother's Day
I've been scolded for not blogging more. This is mostly due to the fact that I am pretty much 9 months pregnant at this point and don't do much all day other than read and watch movies or TV, waiting for the little guy to be born. Therefore I have very little to blog about. But I have collected a few photos to hold you over until after the baby comes when I am sure I will have a ton of baby photos and stories to post on here.
This first photo is of the cherry blossoms on the cherry tree in our front yard. They are finally blooming and I can not wait for them to turn into cherries. The cherries on this tree are delicious!
This is little Logan. He's 16 months here. He's our friend Christine and Scott's little boy and wanted to drive our car away while the adults chit chatted in the parking lot on Mother's Day. We all went to Chuck A Rama to eat and it was majorly delicious. It was very strange to be wished a Happy Mother's Day by everyone though.
My swollen pregnant feet. I weigh 145 lbs now and the circulation in my body doesn't always reach my feet that well. Icky.
Josh took me to Yellowstone Bear World for Mother's Day. This bear walked right up to our car and put his nose on it before we decided to keep driving. Almost gave me a heart attack.
This timber wolf at Bear World was just chilling in the sunshine on the road. Guess he thought it was too hot to bother with us.
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