Pregnancy Brain

Well I am 32 weeks along now. Hopefully I only have 8 weeks left if all goes well. Things are getting very cramped and uncomfortable in there. Baby is squishing my ribs which hurts a lot and then of course there's always the back pain. I'm short on breath constantly. Just doing minor things like the dishes or taking a shower has me sitting down trying to catch my breath because our son is lying on my lungs. I'm sure it can't feel very good for him either all cramped in there with hardly any space to move but it won't be long now.

I've had fake contractions a few times. They hurt a bit they aren't too bad. Just my body practicing for the real thing I guess. I am ready to see my son but still very scared of the actual labor and delivery part. I think, besides the pain, it's mostly fear of the unknown. How much will it really hurt? Will my body ever be the same? Will I be able to withstand the pain? I'm not planning on having an epidural or any drugs if I can help it because it would cost too much money with our lack of insurance so there may be a lot of crying going on in that room.

I've always been kind of absent minded, something I think I inherited from my own mother and something Josh loves to make fun of. But lately my brain seems to have completely turned to mush. I can't remember anything anymore. I have to write everything down or I will forget it. I'll take my blood sugar in the morning and then totally forget to retake it 2 hours after eating which does me no good at all since I am supposed to compare the 2 numbers. Or I'll go the grocery store to pick up just 2 items and then not be able to remember what they were. I think all the thoughts about our baby boy are crowding out anything else in my brain. Hopefully that goes away later on.