12 Weeks

Justace still hates tummy time but I have a system down. I don't put him on tummy time at night anymore because I figure night time is the time to relax and wind down and tummy time just upsets him so much. But I set my alarm and everyday at 10am and 1pm and 5pm he gets 15 minutes of tummy time on the floor. Yesterday during his morning session he just slept the whole time which is fine by me. The second session he screamed the whole time. But the third session he actually spent the first 7 or 8 minutes pushing himself up on his arms to look around. I was so proud of him and so relieved he was actually trying. Of course he did give up and scream the last half but I'm hoping if I stick with this routine eventually he will get used to it and won't hate it quite so much. My friend Shay's little girl just turned 6 months and she is now up on all fours. Can't wait till he gets there too. He might be a little behind because I didn't put him on tummy time for so long because I hated listening to him scream but I'm sure he will catch up in time.

I don't want him to grow up too fast and I love this time I have now but still I can't wait until I no longer have to change diapers!!! He pees so much! I feel like my whole day is nothing but diaper changing and feeding still.

Things are so different and so much better now than they were when I first brought him home. He sleeps pretty much through the night most nights now and we have a nice little daily routine down. I've gotten the hang of a lot of things and he's also getting the hang of things too.

We're still struggling financially but I feel a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders since the anonymous donor paid off our huge hospital debt. I really don't think I've ever felt more grateful for anything in my life.

Spiritually I'm getting back on track too. I don't plan on going to church because honestly I just don't want to go right now and also it's a real pain with not having a car and not knowing people here too well and not wanting to be Mormon. But I have been praying every morning so that's a start.

My fitness isn't great. I gave up on doing Insanity but I have been going on walks with Justace 3 times a day and I've started doing pushups and situps and squats 3 times a week. I've pretty much stayed the same weight which is bad since I'm not losing any but good that at least I'm not gaining any either. Once winter comes and I can't go on walks I plan on going to the gym every morning here and jogging and lifting weights.

Josh's friend Tristan moved in this past week upstairs. Not much is different there since he came over almost every night. I don't mind having him here. He's nice and helpful and a good friend.