I really need to vent about something. Normally I would never say anything negative about Josh because I don't believe it's right to talk about your husband or wife in a negative way to others and also people already automatically assume the worst about him even when it's not true. But I need to vent about something this once. When we brought Justace home from the hospital we started out equal sort of. He actually had more baby experience than I did and was better with Justace than I was at first. I had to ask a lot of questions and be shown how to do alot of things at first like changing diapers and feeding and dressing the baby. In the hospital before we even got to come home he was so amazing and helpful and great. And the first weeks home he was amazing and wonderful and helpful and I've never been more grateful.
But then, after a few months, he returned to work again and I was on my own at home alone with our son. He still wants to help and he still wants to take care of Justace but it's not the same as it was then. I'm home all the time with him. I see everything that happens with him. He doesn't. He's gone much of the time and has to rely on what I tell him. It feels like he's not really a part of things like he was before.
Things have begun to change in the family dynamic. I feel as though I know Justace so much better than Josh does now. Justace is growing up and changing and becoming his own person but because Josh only gets to see him a few hours each day instead of all the time like I do Josh doesn't really know our son like I do. He doesn't know what works to calm him or how much he eats or when he needs to go to sleep.
It's so good Justace gets so much time with his Mommy but I'm afraid he's missing Daddy time. I feel like he desperately needs that alone time with his dad and he's not getting enough of it. He is a good dad but I just guess I really wish he had more time with Justace. Perhaps if I get a job he will be alone more with him and that will be a good thing for both Josh and Justace I hope.
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2 comments:
I wouldn't let that get you down too much... I am pretty sure that is one of the most universal mommy woes ever lol. Just be grateful he is bringing home the bacon, and just try to encourage him to spend quality play time for a bit every day with the little guy. :D
He does. When he's at home I always leave them alone while I cook or clean. Plus, if I get a job then he will be alone with him a lot when I'm working and he's not.
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